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12 November 2009 @ 09:00 pm
...On several fronts (thanks, guys). Still can't run very far, but what I can run I run a whole lot better (and faster). People in track club have been commenting on that. Still suck at Japanese, but I suck a whole lot more comprehensibly -- I occasionally have gotten comments about that. I'm still frustrated, of course, I still feel deeply uncomfortable speaking Japanese (that is, I have trouble at the beginning of conversations, or in brief exchanges, then I kind of relax into it. Occasionally I even start spurting copious amounts of nonsense at high speed, and sometimes people even seem to understand it. But other times I just get derailed and can't seem to make any sense at all, when I'm lacking vocabulary or grammar or whatever).

Writing continues to get easier, but it was always kind of easy. It's mistake-filled writing, naturally, but now my mistakes are more complicated.

I'm still exhausted, and I'm still getting a B (only question is high or low -- it's pegged right in the middle right now), but I'm more resigned to the whole thing. At any rate, the one thing I'm not complaining about it the Sophia program, which is pushing me, and hard, and is chock-full of excellent teachers. Recent poor test results aside, I suspect I'm actually learning something. I guess I'm fairly happy with it so far, and I know should give the process more time. I'm just tired, and I still think it's just slightly too fast for me, I do get lost occasionally. And somehow I need to find a way to relax -- just not yet, I have another test tomorrow. And next Tuesday. And midterms starting at the end of that week and, and, and... Yeah, it sounded good in theory.

One thing though, I seem to be attacking Japanese with vocabulary. It's not exactly helping to produce natural-sounding Japanese (oh, god, no), but it does seem to be helping with the comprehension, putting me in approximately the opposite position from where I started. I do need to start attacking the model sentences, but, well... I'm trying to get ahead on vocabulary (where my current efforts have ironically left me behind; I just finished creating electronic flashcards for the entire semester's vocabulary plus a bit -- we only recently started the current kanji book and don't finish it this semester).
In the mood: tiredtired
hamanosilencehamanosilence on November 12th, 2009 02:04 pm (UTC)
That sounds much better for now :)

From my (not so good in japanese) point of view it is usually the lack of vocabulary that prevents me from saying something ... see saying something wrong is better and more easy to improove than to say nothing ^^.
As someone said, languages are no math (sadly) the answers are not yours to find alone, you can ask ^^ :P
Jelliskyjellisky on November 12th, 2009 06:16 pm (UTC)
Sounds like you're breaking through the wall a little bit. I see this same frustration in a lot of my classes. I'm known to push my students hard and make them work very hard... then back off a little and let them appreciate what that hard work has wrought.

It sounds like you're starting to see what your hard work is getting you. The program sounds amazing and quite difficult from what you've been relating. I'd probably be just as frustrated as yourself.

Good luck, man. Chin up and all that! You're doing something fun and awesome (that I wish I could do myself right now). I may have to use a sabbatical semester years down the road to do something similar. *laughs.*

thjazithjazi on November 13th, 2009 04:15 am (UTC)
For me its always disappointing to know all the words in a paragraph but not be able to parse them properly. Or to hear all the words but not be able to string them into something intelligible. Or to speak German or Italian when I'm trying to speak Chinese.

Or the fact that only two of the four tones I think I'm saying are actually intelligible to others.

Yeah, I pretty much suck despite having worked on it for 8 years or so (interspaced with about 7 of forgetting when my mother-in-law was around).