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09 September 2006 @ 12:05 am
Three months ago, today.

The shock has worn off. The worst is over. But... I've been feeling lonely and depressed ever since. I wasn't before -- maybe a bit lonely sometimes (living alone and having no steady SO can do that), but I didn't care (mind?) all that much. I like being alone most of the time. This is different.

It's really starting to get on my nerves.
In the mood: depresseddepressed
redfiermaredfierma on September 9th, 2006 07:50 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry. As I've said before, please let me know if there's anything I can do to help. *hugs*
Douglas Triggs: duckdoubt72 on September 9th, 2006 08:29 pm (UTC)
Is there anything you can do? Sure. Is there anything I'm going to ask you to do? No... Time (or your lack thereof) and distance would make it too much of an imposition. :-P

(I'd actually considered offering to take you hiking after your recent, well, you know, but figured you wouldn't have near enough time for it. Plus I was worn out from Anaheim and catching up from being gone over a week, and just plain forgot to do it. Consider this an offer if you like.)
asakiyumeasakiyume on September 10th, 2006 01:41 am (UTC)
I've found forcing myself to be social, even when I don't really want to be, helps when I'm feeling depressed. It fills up the minutes and hours, and then gradually the bad time passes. Plus, when you're socializing, you're bouncing up against other people, and sometimes you meet someone who you can be friends with.

It's only three months :-( Give yourself time. It's a huge, huge thing...
Douglas Triggs: blackdoubt72 on September 10th, 2006 05:42 pm (UTC)
Well, thing is, I don't think it was that, that was just the trigger. The shock that shuffled up and down.

When I think about him now, I'm just vaguely sad. A lot of vague sadness mind you, but.

And as for being social... Well, I work at home. Alone. I take every possible opportunity to be social, because otherwise I would go mad, and that was just as true before as it is now.
hamanosilencehamanosilence on September 10th, 2006 09:12 am (UTC)
Hmn, I guess that's like always ... dreams are mostly more nice when you can dream of and not fulfill them. Back in the days you wanted to be alone you knew that if you wanted, there were the people to meet with. But now that is gone ....

Well that was not helpfull at all ...
Allison Steinastein142 on September 11th, 2006 12:28 pm (UTC)
Grief takes time. Hugs and good thoughts....